I wake up in the middle of the night to pee. there is a moment before awareness that feels like falling. here safe warm in this bed. i know something. but i don’t know what yet. i am a body. and then the knowledge shakes loose and flows down its Continue Reading
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Freedom from hair
There are some moments throughout the days of the last several weeks when it occurs to me that I have Lung Cancer. No really, I’m not even kidding. Lung Cancer. And that is a perhaps a desperate thing and I think perhaps I have been misunderstanding the meaning of that. Continue Reading
The Urge to Kill
Back in the saddle again. Maybe a little less lucid than sometimes. Pain pills and their support staff of diuretics . The last few days have been an exploration of what this body of mine will do with this particular cure. This treatment. Which is not a poison. It is Continue Reading
Secrets
Excellent lovely people, i am, or would like to call myself a documentarian. a noticer of things interesting, an asker of questions. I realize that many of you have found yourselves the subject of my scrutiny in the past and i’m looking forward to hearing all your secrets in the Continue Reading
piece by piece
i am no longer feeling terror. which is such a relief. what i feel mostly is a great deal of wonder. suddenly this amazing organic community of people that i love; that i have always known and relished; has bloomed. like some 20 year perennial. here, suddenly is a graceful Continue Reading