Val is where my heart is. Val, and my dog, and the family I grew up in. And out in the green-smelling woods of this big messy extraordinary world. This is where I keep my heart. I need a lover to define my edges, to draw the shape of my Continue Reading
cancer
4-year election cycle
today we parked in the parking garage at 9:25am and rode up the elevator area of trauma. at various times we’ve tried to run and hold our breath to be spared that rear brain memorial to the past terrors. the smell near the elevators at kaiser interstate holds in its Continue Reading
here we go
A lot of living has been happening. Joyfully not dwelling in cancerland (except for a shadowy whisper of worry, a small wondering, glimpsed now and then at the back of things). Now we are getting out our passports again. A sudden lump above Val’s collarbone has proven malignant. Results of Continue Reading
kind news
January’s mystery nodules have vanished! All else remains stable. Hooray!
Scan results to come Monday,
Scan results will be in on Monday.
scan goes into overtime
So we saw the oncologist and the upshot was, Val will have another scan in 6 weeks.
two-step
Dearest and fondest and best, i am here! still. and i realize it has been a big vast silence for these many months and i am sorry. i went to new zealand. and after that i did some laundry. on Monday they scanned the inside of me. i suppose somewhere Continue Reading
to visit Xena
We are still here.
a thousand things have happened
PART 1 I hate to begin with such melodrama. But it is almost 2 years ago. And I am lying in a bed. A recovery room. I am remembering what they said I would forget. Remembering the drug they gave me that was supposed to make me forget. The camera Continue Reading
Status quo + CT comin’ up
Your assignment: focus your divine love rays or whatever you’ve got on CT results as transparent and clean as a freshly-washed window.