Yesterday we got the CT scan results. (The CT scan was Monday.) The tumor is slightly smaller. And then the doctor made an astonishing statement. Her (unproven) diagnostic hypothesis is that the tumor has died. that i am merely harboring the lifeless carcass of a once-great hunk of cancer. An Continue Reading
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indecision and hilarity
i read the obituaries every day. i have for years. i try to take note of all the people disappearing. snatched out of place. this place where we live. this valley of land near the criss-crossing rivers, watched over by a sharp volcano. buildings, boats and freeway exchanges keep us Continue Reading
Bad Arc
As Deborah has said, this is a roller coaster. This is a manic-depressive way of going at life. My friend Cosmic Patti said it is shooting the rapids. There is calm and then not so calm. I want it to be a single story. A nice arc. Like shooting a Continue Reading
Terrisue called
at 7:00am this morning. “Your scan looks fine” We will know more details when we get to talk to the doctor. val
PDX snow!
Snow! Snow in Portland! Crazy! We skibbled out into it. Some of us stuck our faces in. We did not make this broccoli-nosed snowbeast, but isn’t she cute? Val had her two-months-after-hardcore-chemo CAT scan this morning; we should have the results by phone Monday. Our basic status: emotionally all over Continue Reading
I got my hair i got my dog i got my eyebrows i got my sunshine i got life life life
Ack! i feel so much better!
It’s crazy to have this much gumption. To realize that i could do anything. really anything any mostly upright human adult could do. anything… I didn’t see it coming but this is a lot of pressure. What should i do? I should do it all– now. I should work on Continue Reading
hallelujah
I am here in this house this morning. I’ve walked up and down the stairs several times in search of bowls big enough for the stuffing, in search of the turkey baster, in search of the thing- i forgot what- by the time i got down there. I have proto Continue Reading
a horizon gone rogue
i swear they are gonna give me PTSD before it’s all said and done. i will spoil the surprise now by saying everything is okay (a relative notion, keeping in mind the premise of the blog and the fact that i am out of earl grey tea). a tickle. the Continue Reading
CT scan – results Monday or Tuesday
So after the drama of last week’s emergency room visit and blood/platelet transfusion, Val’s energy ticked up a little, although she’s still feeling pretty punky. She continued having nosebleeds, but they were less severe and didn’t last as long. And now that we’re slightly used to them (and now that Continue Reading